Fish, Mud, and Elevators: 2011

1. Name one thing that has always fascinated you.
How people figure things out. How stuff works. That kind of thing where you hear about how something was created and go "Huh...That's pretty clever."
2. What was a time when your life did not meet your or others’ expectations? I ALWAYS MEET MY EXPECTATIONS. I pretty much know how I'll act during a situation....or I'll underestimate so I can feel awesome later. I fall short for other people's expectations, though, which I feel bad about. I don't know why, but people, especially teachers and stuff, tend to overestimate my motivation and intelligence, and then blame my lack of success on other things. But it's all cool. At least I come off as someone who can do awesome things ^_~
3. Can you judge a book by its cover? It's all part of advertising. There are plenty of books that I've discovered simply because I went "Oh, dude, cool cover."
4. What is your lucky number, and why is it so lucky? I like prime numbers. 13 and 7 rank highly on the list.
5. Is there anything you, ‘just know’ and have no explainable or rational way to explain how you know it? I feel like I can usually tell when something is off with someone. Or how people will react. Like, I can usually predict how my mother will respond to something, even though there might not be a pattern or a specific "sign". Stuff that people can figure out about other people without being able to pinpoint the exact clue. BRAIN PROCESSING SPEEDZ.
6. Name one thing in your life you hope you never have to see or encounter again. I don't know. I can't really think of anything I'm afraid of facing... Maybe Mr. Brown, my band teacher. I just stopped showing up to practice and I feel guilty about it. He's an intense man, too, so... Anything else I feel like I could deal with without being terribly smothered.
7. What was the most personal question someone ever asked you? Did you answer it? I don't know. What I think is personal and what other people think is personal are different. I don't like it when people ask about my home-life. I answer, but I try to protect my mother a lot because I don't want people involved and definitely don't want to become the stuff of gossip. I don't know what the most personal was. I either didn't answer or I danced around answering it.
8. What was your first sexual experience? Speaking of personal questions...
9. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? I wish I'd shut up a bit or think a little more before I talk because sometimes I feel like an idiot, but I'm comfortable with the way I am. I feel like there isn't any point in wishing I was different because if I really wanted to be that way, I wouldn't think about it. I'd just be that way.
10. Have you ever wanted to trade places with someone else for a day, week, or a lifetime? If so, who was it and why? I'm sure I wanted to when I was younger, but not really. I wish I could do some of the things other people do, but AS me. I kind of wish I could see what it's like in the arts since I'll probably never experience it. I wonder what it would have been like if my mom went with my cousin's ideas and got me into modeling and acting and stuff like Amanda Bines. It'd be a totally different world. And I think Juliana's got it, too. I'd love to see what the world is like through Gaga's eyes.
11. What would someone see if they went in your closet right now? My closet? Who knows. I don't.
12. Have you ever had a crush on someone you shouldn’t? I could crush on whoever I like, bih.
13. Name something you’ve always wanted that you will never ever have. This is going to sound terribly spoiled of me, but I can't think of anything that I've wanted that I either haven't gotten or that I don't ever intend on getting. I don't think I'll ever go to Boston University like I wanted, but I think that I'll have the opportunity, but will decide against it because of cost or something. It's kinda different than "never ever" having.
14. Who was your first boyfriend? HA.
15. If you could choose to believe in Science or religion, which would you choose and why? I wish I could believe in both because they collide in so many different areas and I love the idea of religion, I just don't believe it. Half of science is probably wrong, too. It's a work in progress. At least science leaves room for discovery.
16. What was your last food craving? Avocadoes. I could so eat one right now.
17. What is your favorite place to get breakfast? "Cracker Barrel. I know it’s going to shorten my life, but at least I will die happy. And buttery."- Juliana. That about sums it up.
18. When did you last speak to your best friend? I said hi after reading this qquestion and then we shnuggled.
19. “Being bad feels pretty good.” What do you think about this? It's exciting. Adrenaline and all that good stuff. It's good for people as long as it's not going to hurt you. It's just sad because our ideas of "being bad" are things like not wearing our IDs in school. We think we're such rulebreakers.
20. What is the first thing you usually think of when you get up in the morning? Typically? "What can I make for breakfast?"
21. What is something you can do now that you could not do four years ago? Oh man, that'd be a long list. Four years ago... I was a lot less confident. Or something. I don't know. I think I had a weaker personality. So I can be more sure of myself now? I can do things without worrying about EVERYONE else's feelings, and I couldn't do that four years ago. Now I only worry about a select few and let the world keep turning. Can't make everyone happy.
22. Would you have sex with someone you don’t love? When it comes to sex, man, anything could happen. I don't think I'll ever get there, even with someone I love, so this question is being skipped.
23. Of all the people you know, who do you feel most comfortable talking to or can talk to about anything? There are some things I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone about, but for the purpose of the question, Juliana. Just because I know that she won't hate me for it because she probably thinks she's worse or something anyway. And because she would tell me anything I asked and I feel I'd owe her the same level of honesty.
24. Assuming you’ve lost your virginity, at what age did you lose it? HA.
25. How good are you at keeping secrets? Depends the level of the secret. If I'm told not to tell something, though, then I wouldn't. Unless it's a "for your own good" thing.
26. Do you have a personal secret even your closest friends don’t know? Psh, I don't know. I can't think of anyhting I make a point out of hiding.
27. Do you believe in reincarnation? No, but I love the idea of it. I think it's a better idea than "BE GOOD OR UR GOIN' TO HELL!!!!!!!!"
28. Has anyone (besides yourself) ever read your diary, either with or without your permission? Yep. Though it wasn't really a diary, but whatever. People are always snooping through my things. And I guess they always find something because they suck at pretending they didn't.
29. Have you ever had a crush on an authority figure (i.e. boss, teacher, etc.). Not that I can recall.
30. Have you ever felt as if you were a failure or somehow ‘failed’ someone you care about? Yeah =(